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[Thirsty for Souls; The Never Ending Burn in My Throat]
We went to go visit Michael today, but I'm sad to say that I'm still mad at him. All mother and father did was cry. Everyone cried. Except for me. I merely stood on the sidelines and watched as they all looked upon him. But I did my best, so I guess that had to count for something, right? I hope so...

Alas, I'm still bored and still depressed. Shoot. LoL. But on to bigger and better things;



Title: Simply Rain Simply Tears
Author: my_stained_lips
Summary: She only wanted to be loved, but she got something else in return for all her sins.
Pairing: Inuyasha/Kagome
Genre: Romance/Drama/Angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Inuyasha © Rumiko Takahashi.
Author's Notes: I forget why I wrote this. It still amazes me and more or less, it still makes me embarrassed. Heh. I dunno. How old was I? Oh, about 14, newly 15? Hmm. Somewhere around there. Well, I guess I matured aged *ahem* a lot in the past year. Um... Nah! I think I just grew older. Part III should be out soon; I'm depressed enough to be working on these again... That is so sad! -_-;

(So sorry for any spelling errors; I caught most of them, but some happened to get away with a speeding ticket. Heh.)

Simply Rain... Simply Tears

Chapter 2: Simply Pain... Simply Angst

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[To see the first part, click here: Simply Rain Simply Tears Chapter 1]

Inuyasha... you bastard... I hate you... Like the simple rain... and the simple tears... tears that stain my face and hit the backs of my hands...

The darkness left me... as did you... once long ago... Once long ago, you loved me... as I did you... Hate to say it, but... I still love you...

So there stood Kagome and Inuyasha under the growing light and fading darkness. Arms in arms. Embrace. A painful embrace that had resurfaced the angsty past. Bringing the shards of dreams and bloody glass back into place. Nipped fingers pushed and pulled the pieces back into the broken frame.

Glass with cool blood red liquid covering the awful nightmares and letting the dreams through. Light falling upon the fallen angel, who screamed in agony of the sheering pain of re-growing wings. Black feathers fly, bleached pure white in color.

Out from the clouds peeked a sky so blue. Clouds so fluffy and puffy and lingering lies on the horizon make this picture so sweet. A bittersweet taste. So sweet, yet so bitter. That is the taste you get when you mix chocolate and honey together. A bittersweet ending? Or a bittersweet beginning?

"Inuyasha," she sobbed into his shoulder, "Why?" She needed to know. Was he foolin'? Or was he being true? Was he or was he not? She needed, longed, hoped for him to be true to her.

He didn't answer, but instead looked deep into her eyes and then leaned forward placing a kiss upon her pale lips. She shook and trembled only to relax deep into the kiss. Her heart was saying yes. Yes, kiss him. You love him. He loves you. Do you not remember all those kisses under the moonlit sky? Those passionate embraces? The words fresh on lips? The three words your heart longed to hear? If that was not love, then tell me what love is? Tell me. I, you, need to know. What is love?

Is love just another word that has useless meaning? A word full of lies and trash? A empty meaningless word that does not hold truth nor loyalty. It that what love is? Or is love something great? Something two people share? Sharing that does not involve words. Words that can heal the scars of the heart. Words that can make you happy? Or is it neither... She did not know. But then again what did she know?

But another part, deep into the darkness of her soul, was screaming no. No! He betray you! He left you! Leave him as he did you! Walk away! Walk away! Leave! Hurt him as he did you! Love is just a dream for fools who cannot make it. Love is simply used to manipulate and twist and bend people to other's sick desires. Their sick desires to hurt others and make then bow to the master of the game. Like a puppet. Controlled and used, tossed and burned. A puppet.

Kagome opened her eyes so see Inuyasha's closed eyes. He was so deep into the kiss, he hadn't realized that she had stopped on her part. She just stood, letting him do all the work. All the work. All the work in love. Love. Was this love? Or was it a big game of revenge? Revenge. Revenge screamed out against love. Love couldn't fight back. And so revenge's scream grew louder. And it won.

Kagome began to kiss again. This time getting hot. She teased him with her tongue, with her hands tangling in his hair. She wanted him to know what love is, then to have it ripped from your tender flesh. To hurt and scream in pain and have angst fill you. Simply pain and simply angst. That's all it was. Pure and beautiful angst and pain. Embrace it. Hold it.

The moans from her throat were not part of the plan though, as she realized she wanted this too. She wanted to kiss him, and hold him. She wanted to grow old and die with him. For since the beginning, that was all she ever wanted. To be with him. Stopping, she pulled back. Back outta his reach, back outta his embrace. She did want this, but not like this.

"Inuyasha," she said, "I can't. You hurt me too many times just for me to go on pretending like it never happened. It did. It did happen. And so now it haunts me. It says that I can't be with you. Revenge is in the human blood. And so it calls out and is taking its course. Running through my veins. Poisoning me. Blinding me to your love. I do love you, but it can't happen. You love Kikyou. She loves you. I love you. Our love cannot exist in a triangle. It has to be a perfect circle. A circle that connects me to you. You to her. She to you. And you must decided who you wish to share the circle with. Kikyou. Or me."

"Kagome," he stuttered, "I love you,"

"How can that be! You love me or her! Choose! Do you know how hard it is to let someone go! To think of them day by day and know that they are holding another? That they are kissing and loving another? To have to forget them-"

"Like it never happened," he finished for her, "Kagome. I did love you. I always have and always will. I love the way you scold me, I love the way you laugh with me. I love the way your eyes shine when you are happy, the way you bit your lip when you are nervous, the way you wring your hands when you are afraid, the way you kiss when you need me, the way you smile when you sleep, the way-"

"Inuyasha!" she said shaking her head from side to side, her hair swinging in the wind, "Stop! Stop! Stop it! Don't! This love cannot happen! It shouldn't! We need to stop before things get outta hand! Inuyasha don't!"

"Kagome! I want you! I need you, I love you! Why can't you believe me when I say this? Do you know how much it hurts not to be able to have you! It burns! Burns from the inside out! I want you Kagome! I want you and none other! Believe me! Please! You have got to! Kikyou means nothing to me! I swear! She betrayed me just like...like I did you. I'm sorry Kagome! how many times do I have to say it for you to believe me? Tell me! I'll do it!"

"Inuyasha," so he did know what pain was. He knew what it felt like to be casted away like a broken tool. For that's what they all were in the end. A broken tool. A puppet. For in the end, love did not conquer all...

xXx

Watching from the shadows, stood a lone figure clutching a bag tight. Kikyou. She saw everything. So this was betrayal?

"Inuyasha, how could you?" she sobbed and walked off...

It this betrayal? Is this hurt? Is this pain? But more importantly,

Is this Love?

Inuyasha...DIE.

-END CHAPTER 2-

Depressed enough? NEVER! A Lovely Complex deleted her stories! OMFG! Yeah, her "name" is fkas. OMFG! I SO TOTALLY LOVED [A FINE LINE] AND SHE WENT AND DELETED IT? WTF?! I was in and out of love with that story! I wonder... she already had all the plots written out, so I wonder. Of course, she deleted ALL her fanfiction, even @ A Single Spark: A Kagome Sesshoumaru Site, and her profiles too. Shame. Waste. Well, I'm at lost... ;_; She was my hero and one of my favs. Well, I'll mourn over my loss. Weep ;_; some more...